WHILE THERE ARE SAYINGS, PEOPLE COIN TO RHYME WITH THE NEW YEAR LIKE "IMMA GET MINE IN '09," "READY TO SHINE IN '09" OR MY FAVE, "ON MY GRIND IN '09" WE ALL HAVE A LIST OF CHANGES OR GOALS THAT WE WANT TO SEE HAPPEN OR PURSUE IN THE NEW YEAR. WHILE THERE ARE OTHERS THAT FRONT ON BELIEVING IN NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS, THEY STILL SEEK SOMETHING NEW TO COME INTO FRUITION IN THE NEW YEAR.
PERSONALLY, I HAD NOTHING TO WANT FOR IN '09, BEING SURE ABOUT EVERYTHING THAT WAS TO COME IN 2009, BEING MY LAST YEAR OF UNDERGRAD, RECEIVING A DEGREE AND BASICALLY THE BEGINNING OF A FUTURE OF MY DREAMS IN WRITING. AFTER LONG CONSIDERATION, I HAD TO ASK MYSELF WHY I DIDN'T MAKE A LIST OF GPA, AND WEIGHT LOSS GOALS. I CAME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT IF I WERE TO DIE TODAY OR (LAST NIGHT), EVEN WITHOUT ACTUALLY WALKING ACROSS THE STAGE AND AMID ALL MY FINANCIAL PITFALLS, I AM BLESSED SO MUCH SO, THAT I AM HAPPY WHERE I AM NOW.
WELL, MY COMPLEX MIND WOULDN'T ALLOW ME TO JUST THINK IN THE PRESENT OR RELY ON MY GOALS IN THE COMING MONTHS SO I MADE A VOW TO MYSELF, THIS YEAR WANT GONNA START WITH GOALS, BUT BEGAN WITH A LIFESTYLE. I AM 22 AND STILL HAVE AN ISSUE WITH BEING TRUTH TO "ME". SO WITH THAT BEING SAID 2009 IS THE YEAR WHERE NOT ONLY DO I PRACTICE BEING "REAL" I DO THAT ON THE DAILY, BUT I WILL BE WHO I AM REGARDLESS OF EXTERNAL FORCES.
NOW, MANY OF YOU ARE LIKE "HMM, I BEEN DOIN THAT" OR "I ALWAYS DO ME" BUT LETS BE REALISTIC, TO WHAT DEGREE ARE WE OURSELVES, AT ALL TIMES. ,I AM NOT TALKING ABOUT CERTAIN BEHAVIORS AND HOW TO ACT IN CERTAIN PUBLIC SPHERES, BUT AT WHAT POINT IN THESE SPHERES AM I TRYNA APPEASE SOMEONE OR SOMETHING IN ORDER TO FIT INTO A "BOX" OR SOCIAL CONSTRUCTS. MORE SPECIFICALLY AM I DENYING WHO I REALLY AM BECAUSE "CERTAIN" GROUPS OF PEOPLE WILL JUDGE THE SUBCULTURES, RELIGIOUS BELIEFS OR SEXUALITY THAT IAM A PART OF, IF I SAY THAT I AM DOWN WITH THIS OR HAVE A CERTAIN OPINION ABOUT THAT.
LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, IN 2009 CRISTYN ANTOINETTE STEWARD DOES NOT CARE ABOUT THE THOUGHTS PEOPLE HAVE ONCE I WALK AWAY. THIS IS SIMPLY MY DESIGN IN 2009. I AM NOT SAYING THAT THIS IS GOING TO HAPPEN ON JAN 2ND 2009, BUT I WILL BEGIN TO PUT THIS INTO PRACTICE AFTER I CLICK PUBLISH ON THIS BLOG.
I WISH EVERYONE A BLESSED AND FRUITFUL NEW YEAR!!!!!
1 comment:
that's what's up twin!...like my man seuss said (lol), "Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."...ur friends will be there to support you (so long as you don't try to kill yourself...lol)...and as u know, as long as u keep God first, all things will fall into place...keep moving! Much love and blessings for the future!
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